True-blue

You know, when you hurt me
Even in times like this
I never hope for love to come in form of another person
I never hope that universe sends me someone else and heal this wound
I just hope you would change
And finally understand my worth
You see,
That's how much i love you;
When i could just turn my heart for another option
But i don't

Temporariness

What is so devastating about life is realizing that everything is temporary. The pain you feel is temporary, happiness is temporary. Even the death is temporary too.
One day you wake up smiling from ear to ear only to be reminded, minutes later, of the fact that the joy you feel now, and whatever makes you happy today will be faded someday. That the wheel of life will turn around. That you arent meant to be happy forever. That sadness will eventually strike in. That it's only a matter of time til you're overwhelmed by all the problems this world has to offer.

I keep thinking it's funny that people are hoping for permanent happiness from something temporary.
Sometimes you will think that it is unfair. But the other day you will think that it is actually fair for world to be unfair. And so what if everything is temporary? Even though you already know how something is gonna end, doesn't mean you can't choose to enjoy the ride.

Today i learn this the hard way.

Disappointment

I woke up today with a lot of expectations, I smiled at a bunch of dumb-yet beautiful scenario in my head. Keep imagining this and that, thrilled of the possibility that it might happen for real. I have so many people around to rely on and I thought to my self, that it wouldn’t hurt that much to rely my happiness on them once in a while, or at least just for today.

But it turned out that I couldn’t be more wrong...

If there's someone who's responsible for my happiness, it's me myself. Expectation always leads to disappointment. Always. Period.
And I, of all people, should’ve known better.