favorite lines of the day

1. People change – for better or worse. Accept it. You never have the complete story of what they’ve been through. Cherish the moments you had with them, but understand that your paths can be separated and you may never see them the same way again – and vice versa. It doesn’t erase the sadness of losing them, but what else can you do? I learned it a hard way. -- Marsha Faradina

2. I like food and sleep. If i give you my food or text you all night, you're special to me -- @autocorrects

to the dearest tk09

hereby i attach my prayer and best wishes for you all to face fundamental engineering examination

SEMANGAT SIDANGNYA BESOK, GESTI!

Today's Galauness

KULIAH ITU FASE HIDUP PALING ENAK I SO MISS IT I'M GONNA CRY

well, actually these days i feel like kinda friendsick (a phrase i made for calling a condition of missing your friends). i really miss my college friends in Bandung, i desperately want to be by their side right now, joking around and laughing at silly things, sharing thoughts and ideas, eating like crazy, gosh i do miss them. i was facebooking when random photos of my senior appeared on screen. the photo showed her trip to Belitong with her friends at work. at first, my thought was "ah gue juga ntar kalo udah kerja udah punya duit mau ah travelling gitu pas long weekend. gue selama kuliah ga pernah jalan2 karna ga punya duit" but then my brain came up with the thought that when you're already employed, after such short escape you had, you have to go back again to the hell of work stuffs and it's really different with when you're still a college student. yes, you have to go back to deal with college stuffs too of course but this college stuffs aint a big deal compared to the stuffs you have to face at such professional world. i also became insecure that i wont have such a great friends in office like i do now in college. i'm so scared of living behind the memories of the past. sometimes i wonder, do my friends even feel the same? i'm so scared that i cant move on while my friends already are busy striving their own dreams, dealing with their own problems. and i'm just stucked between the reality that  the good time is over and the desire of wanting to go back to the past. DEAR GOD I'M NOT READY GROWING UP. 

NOW I WANT TO HUG MY FRIENDS SO TIGHTLY

OH MY GOD I'M SO GALAU I WANT THIS INTERNSHIP TO SOON BE OVER.

I'M SO WEAK THAT I ALREADY WANT TO GO HOME SO BADLY. :( :(

Pardon my labilness.

Take one step at a time, there's no need to rush!

"Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
and you're getting kinda all of impatient, waiting
we live and we learn to take one step at a time
there's no need to rush
it's like learning to fly or falling in love
it's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen
that we find the reasons why, one step at a time"

what i wrote above is the lyric of One Step at A Time by Jordin Sparks. You know, this song is not catgorized as a new song. i used to listen to it when i was on senior high. Lately, i've been listening to this song again and after this long i have known this song i just found out what the lyric really means few days a go. yeah. so-where-have-i-been, right? Anyway this One Step At A Time is really true. Cause i just realized that sometimes you cannot get all the things you want together at the same time. You cant please everyone and doesnt hurt anyone. You cant stand on two different boats eventhough they're going to the same direction. All we have to do is finish one business before proceed to the next one. Reach one dream before start striving the others. So if you are now in doubt, nervous, impatient, or scared that you cant have all that you want, dont rush your self to achieve them all at the same time. Instead, make a good plan, take a solid step and do what you have to do one by one. Because in the end, you do can get all that you want too, it's only a matter of time.

"When you cant wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way we get there is take one step at a time"

for me, every song has its own story, has particular memory of everything that happens in between time i listen to that song. today i found out it's kinda funny how i've just known this song 3 weeks ago yet it could help recalling so many (especially the last 3 months') memories

Ricky Martin feat Joss Stone - The best thing about me is you .mp3

Found at bee mp3 search engine

the story of us

scared to see the ending, why are we pretending this is nothing
i'd tell you i miss you but i dont know how
i've never heard silence quiet this loud
now i'm standing alone in the crowded room and we're not speaking
and i'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me
i dont know what to say since a twist of fate when it all broke down
and the story of us looks a lot like a tragedy now
this is looking like a contest of who can act like they careless
but i like it better when you were on my side
the battle's in your hand now
but i would lay my armor down if you say you'd rather love than fight
so many things that i wish you knew, but the story of us might be ending soon

"everybody's changing and i don't feel the same" (humming)

well, i'm pretty surprised how a thing could totally change 180 degrees just in a few days. from this i might take several lessons, which firstly, never be too sure of what you have now because you'll never know that anything could somehow take it away from you by anytime without a warning. and secondly, since we don't know what plans God have regarding to our lives, we need to hold on, to fight for whatever we think worth the struggle, because no matter how desperately you think your wish would never come true, fate is in God's hand, not yours. and that's why i have to believe that maybe i could turn the situation i have now in 2 weeks. may be it seems impossible, but hey once again, things could change and this situation is not an exception.

Galau Wisuda At Its Highest

John Mayer - Stop This Train .mp3

Found at bee mp3 search engine

That's When I Knew

Call me cheesy. cause i just am. well, at least for these past few days.

Alicia Keys - That's When I Knew - www.SongsLover.pk .mp3

Found at bee mp3 search engin

Random Quote

Saw this on the internet while looking for some birthday quotes, and just couldn't agree more
"I need someone who is comfortable with awkward silences and doesn't mind me not talking most of the time"

10 Things To Do Before Graduate

1. Win HIMATEK Home Tournament (or at least participate in all kind of sport competition)
2. Go to the zoo across ITB
3. Go to Trans Studio and get a college student discount
4. Make a photo box with the girls
5. Win at least one kind of college competition
6. Get a chance to do internship
7. Go abroad!! (no matter if it's for travelling, student exchange, or whatever)
8. Visit all of the good restaurant/cafe at Bandung
9. Go to Kawah Putih
10. Know how it feels like to have a perfect GPA; 4. (if i cant experience it by my self, still i have to find out how exciting it is no matter what hahaha)

Song For A Soldier - Sara Bareilles

totally in love with this song

Sara Bareilles - Song For a Soldier .mp3

Found at bee mp3 search engine

Reply 1997

I spent the rest of my holiday by watching k-drama entitled Reply 1997. I'm never really into a k-drama, so i only watch it when my friends recommend me one. and that is what happen to this Reply 1997. The main casts of this movie are not that good-looking (well, just not my type maybe) though they also are not ugly. The idea of the story is just ordinary. Maybe if you read the synopsis you will find this drama boring, just story about a girl and a boy who have been best friend since they were born and then when they turn into teenagers they begin to feel that there's something more between their friendship, and yeah that is love of course. but the way this film describes the story, telling us what happen, in sometimes hilarious and sometimes touching way, is the thing that makes me impatient to finish this drama right away. once again, i'm not a big fan of k-drama, so it took me days to finish this-16-episodes-drama. i used to watch it everyday before i went to sleep. now when i already finish watching it, i feel something in my life is missing. hahaha. yes this soul needs another spoonful of sweet drama :")

anyway i'm going to share one of my favorite quote of this drama:

"First love. the reason why we think first love is beautiful is not because people we first loved were actually handsome or pretty. it's because we were unconditional, innocent, or a bit stupid at the time of first love. and because we know we can never go back to that young, passionate time of ours."

...and I miss you like you were mine

a relationship that's tedious but inevitable,
a relationship that lasts your entire life,
that's family.