8/26/2015

Activation Energy

Do you know, a relationship between two human beings is like a chemical reaction. Humans are the chemical compounds, interact each other in this universe, seeking for stability. The interaction is achieved through chemical reaction.  

In order for a reaction to be completed successfully, there's an energy that two, together must exceed. It's called the activation energy. One compound may attract another compound. But in some cases, a compound may have a repulsive force towards another. For the former, the activation energy is small, if not achievable. For the later, it takes more effort, more reciprocal actions, more energy and sometimes an external aid, a catalyst. Sometimes, it's so enormous that at the end of the day the two compounds give up and tend to search for another less repellent compound, thus more obtainable reaction.

How i wish we were the former. Unfortunately we are the later.

8/25/2015

Electrical Component

Everytime i get tired of you, i always ask my self, why am i holding on to this? why am i still fighting for this? what exactly do i see in him? why i keep telling my self it's ok while the truth it isn't? but the more i contemplate, the more i find my self lost without any conclusion. But then, there's always something, always, that i suddenly notice, that reminds me of him. Like a badminton match. Or a nail clipper. Or chili sauce. Or electrical component of home appliances. It's as simple as a capacitor. And another component that i can't even recall what its name. The things i never quite understand, and never have an intention to, but i'm sure he knows of. And how i'm assured he'll get me covered in those matters. 

Like magic, those simple things help to put a smile on my face when i remember him. And once again, i give up asking, i give up my longing for a reason, i give up on the condition that no matter how hard is our situation right now, i'm still head over heels in love with him.

It is always the simplest thing in the universe that reminds me how much i adore him. I will always adore him.