to the dearest tk09

hereby i attach my prayer and best wishes for you all to face fundamental engineering examination

SEMANGAT SIDANGNYA BESOK, GESTI!

Today's Galauness

KULIAH ITU FASE HIDUP PALING ENAK I SO MISS IT I'M GONNA CRY

well, actually these days i feel like kinda friendsick (a phrase i made for calling a condition of missing your friends). i really miss my college friends in Bandung, i desperately want to be by their side right now, joking around and laughing at silly things, sharing thoughts and ideas, eating like crazy, gosh i do miss them. i was facebooking when random photos of my senior appeared on screen. the photo showed her trip to Belitong with her friends at work. at first, my thought was "ah gue juga ntar kalo udah kerja udah punya duit mau ah travelling gitu pas long weekend. gue selama kuliah ga pernah jalan2 karna ga punya duit" but then my brain came up with the thought that when you're already employed, after such short escape you had, you have to go back again to the hell of work stuffs and it's really different with when you're still a college student. yes, you have to go back to deal with college stuffs too of course but this college stuffs aint a big deal compared to the stuffs you have to face at such professional world. i also became insecure that i wont have such a great friends in office like i do now in college. i'm so scared of living behind the memories of the past. sometimes i wonder, do my friends even feel the same? i'm so scared that i cant move on while my friends already are busy striving their own dreams, dealing with their own problems. and i'm just stucked between the reality that  the good time is over and the desire of wanting to go back to the past. DEAR GOD I'M NOT READY GROWING UP. 

NOW I WANT TO HUG MY FRIENDS SO TIGHTLY

OH MY GOD I'M SO GALAU I WANT THIS INTERNSHIP TO SOON BE OVER.

I'M SO WEAK THAT I ALREADY WANT TO GO HOME SO BADLY. :( :(

Pardon my labilness.

Take one step at a time, there's no need to rush!

"Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
and you're getting kinda all of impatient, waiting
we live and we learn to take one step at a time
there's no need to rush
it's like learning to fly or falling in love
it's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen
that we find the reasons why, one step at a time"

what i wrote above is the lyric of One Step at A Time by Jordin Sparks. You know, this song is not catgorized as a new song. i used to listen to it when i was on senior high. Lately, i've been listening to this song again and after this long i have known this song i just found out what the lyric really means few days a go. yeah. so-where-have-i-been, right? Anyway this One Step At A Time is really true. Cause i just realized that sometimes you cannot get all the things you want together at the same time. You cant please everyone and doesnt hurt anyone. You cant stand on two different boats eventhough they're going to the same direction. All we have to do is finish one business before proceed to the next one. Reach one dream before start striving the others. So if you are now in doubt, nervous, impatient, or scared that you cant have all that you want, dont rush your self to achieve them all at the same time. Instead, make a good plan, take a solid step and do what you have to do one by one. Because in the end, you do can get all that you want too, it's only a matter of time.

"When you cant wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way we get there is take one step at a time"