well, actually these days i feel like kinda friendsick (a phrase i made for calling a condition of missing your friends). i really miss my college friends in Bandung, i desperately want to be by their side right now, joking around and laughing at silly things, sharing thoughts and ideas, eating like crazy, gosh i do miss them. i was facebooking when random photos of my senior appeared on screen. the photo showed her trip to Belitong with her friends at work. at first, my thought was "ah gue juga ntar kalo udah kerja udah punya duit mau ah travelling gitu pas long weekend. gue selama kuliah ga pernah jalan2 karna ga punya duit" but then my brain came up with the thought that when you're already employed, after such short escape you had, you have to go back again to the hell of work stuffs and it's really different with when you're still a college student. yes, you have to go back to deal with college stuffs too of course but this college stuffs aint a big deal compared to the stuffs you have to face at such professional world. i also became insecure that i wont have such a great friends in office like i do now in college. i'm so scared of living behind the memories of the past. sometimes i wonder, do my friends even feel the same? i'm so scared that i cant move on while my friends already are busy striving their own dreams, dealing with their own problems. and i'm just stucked between the reality that the good time is over and the desire of wanting to go back to the past. DEAR GOD I'M NOT READY GROWING UP.
NOW I WANT TO HUG MY FRIENDS SO TIGHTLY
OH MY GOD I'M SO GALAU I WANT THIS INTERNSHIP TO SOON BE OVER.
I'M SO WEAK THAT I ALREADY WANT TO GO HOME SO BADLY. :( :(
Pardon my labilness.
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