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Badannya besar
Kalau dipuji senyumnya mekar
Kalau ngomong kadang suka mabok
Kalau berjalan bunyinya prokprokprok
Kalau nonton kepalanya miring
Dan suka kalap liat sate kambing

Kalau dilihat baik-baik
Nisa itu cantik
Bulu matanya lentik
Lucu, kayak tokoh di komik
Orangnya pun baik

Orang bilang, Nisa suka cemberut
Selalu pasang muka kecut
Padahal kalau kata Devi
Nisa cuma lagi selfie
Orang bilang, Nisa jutek
"Hati-hati jangan diejek.
Nanti dia ngambek"
Padahal sebenarnya
Nisa suka bercanda
Sebenarnya dia lembut
Walau kalo naik motor suka ngebut

Nisa punya banyak hobi
Di antaranya nonton Korea sambil senyum-senyum sendiri
Tapi oh tapi
Hobi favorit Nisa cuma satu
Yaitu makan segala sesuatu
Daging, sayur, kue, upil, apapun itu

Hari ini, Nisa bertambah usia
4 tahun lagi berkepala dua
Aku mau berdoa semoga
Nisa selalu bahagia
Tercapai semua cita-citanya
Lancar urusan di akhirat juga dunia

Meskipun kita semua berharap ditraktir pizza
Tapi gapapa
Duitnya buat traktir temen kamu aja
Kita semua ikhlas
Kalo kamu lebih milih temen sekelas
Dibanding kita-kita yang suka gajelas
Selamat berumur enam belas!

I love you

20 Facts About Me

Normally, people do this on instagram. Since i don't have an instagram account but my friends keep telling me to make one so they could tag me, and since i still don't find the urge to make one, i decide to just do this on my blog. Yeah, here it goes...

1. I'm a food enthusiast. I love to eat,

2. that's a sole reason i took Food Technology as my sub-major in college.

3. And since i love to eat THAT much, i'm "forced" to also love cooking.

4. As much as i love food, actually i'm a picky eater.

5. I once wanted to own a company that produces healthy instant noodle.

6. I'm 21 yo and still enjoy reading "Hai, Miiko!".

7. I love singing! I unconsciously hum and mumble every single time i hear any song that i know being played at the radio, TV, or even supermarket.

7. I love all songs in: all Sara Bareilles's album, Maroon 5's It Wont Be Soon Before Long and Linkin Park's Meteora.

8. I still drink milk from a strawed-bottle every morning.

9. My siblings are my biggest motivation in life.

10. When i walk together with my first younger sister, people are often mistaken me as the younger one because my sister is way bigger than me.

11. A pajamas that i used to wear when i was 15 yo still fits me until now.

12. I almost always cry over a cheesy comedy-romantic-drama.

13. I give 100% of my self in everything i do, so when it comes to love, once i fall, i fall hard. THAT hard.

14. I listen more than i speak. I think some of my friends consider me as a good listener (am I right?)

15. I do hold grudge and i have a trouble letting go of the past. Still trying to fix this one, tho.

16. I'm a die hard procrastinator HAHAHA.

17. I get distracted sooo easily.

18. I want to tie a knot with someone in 24 or 25, and i hope that someone is an engineer fufufu.

19. I can't stand manly guy with passion (esp in sports and engineering), pointed nose, and eargasm voice :")

20. I'm still figuring out what i really want to do in life.

I still have a long list of facts to add actually (does it make me some kind of narcissist?), but they say it must be twenty. I have several people in my mind to be tagged, but since it's a blog i could't tag any. So that's it. Toodles!

Friend

I always thought that nobody knew my self as best as I did, that in this process of discovering who I really am the only person I should listen to was my own self.

But today I found out that some particular people proved me wrong. That at some point in life, it took talking with those particular people to really figure out things about my self.

I always thought that the only person that really cared about my problem was me my self. That it's every man for him self world out there. That nobody wanted to listen to me, blurting out about the crap that has something to do only with my life. 

But then again today, those some particular people proved me wrong. They listened, as if my story was worth paying attention to.

These particular people are a gift, from God, called friend.

Pesan Dari Pulau Jawa

untuk kawan di Pulau Borneo yang baru menginjak usia 23 tahun

PS: please pardon the illegible handwriting

Cause I Can't, If You Don't

Adele - Adele - I Cant Make You Love M .mp3

Found at bee mp3 search engine

"I will feel the power but you won't, no you won't
Cause I can't make you love me when you don't
I'll close my eyes then I don't see
The love you don't feel when you're holding me
Morning will come and I'll do what's right

Just give me till then to give up this fight

And I will give up this fight"

After all, I'm just a juvenile who's trapped in a 21 years old flesh.

Just Awake - Fear, and Loathing In Las Vegas

The only metal core/screamo (or whatever the genre is) song that i've ever put into my playlist. 

Devastation

Have you ever felt so useless?
Have you ever felt so stuck that any movement you make is bringing you nowhere?
Have you ever felt so left behind while everyone else is busy catching up with their own world?
Have you ever watched someone you love being in trouble and you can't do nothing to help them?
Have you ever failed so many times you start to consider your self as a loser?
Have you ever felt so desperate you don't know what to do with your shitty life?
Have you ever felt so sick of the same solace you've been feeding yourself, like suddenly you realize it's all a cliche?
Have you ever felt so tired of believing?
Have you ever waited too long you start to wonder whether it's the right thing to wait?
Have you ever wished for something that never comes true you start to lose hope?
Have you ever felt fed up of being relentlessly asked to hold on?
Have you ever felt you just want to curl up in bed and cry at your fate all day?
Have you ever felt so scared and insecure and mad at the same time?
Have you ever wanted to be asleep through weeks because reality is a painful thing to wake up to?
Have you ever wanted to escape from your tedious and dull life?
Have you ever wanted to kvetch so bad but you hold back because you know that everyone else is tired of hearing the very same complaint from your mouth?
Have you ever hated your self for being so weak? and effete? and useless? and obtuse? and useless? and inane? and useless?

Cause I have. In fact, those are how i feel right now.

Hang in there, Pris!

Why I Love Reading Comics More Than Novels

Comic has been my favorite reading since i was in kindergarten. I grew up reading them, even until now i still always make time to the bookstore every month to buy the newest volume of series that i've been collecting or to just simply check whether there's a new book by my favorite author. I do read novels, but i'm not fond of them. Like if there's a good novel, i'd love to read it but i don't go to the bookstore often to buy new novels. Not as often as I do with comics. I prefer to have my friends lend me some or to download it from the internet for free (HA!), because you know, novel is a little too pricey comparing to comic. Of course it's worth the price, but sometimes i don't spare that much of money to be spent on books.

But I guess what makes me enjoy comic the most is that everything in comic is told to you in a more effective way. I mean, comparing to words, pictures explain things faster, and thus makes everything more efficient. Comic doesn't bore me with unnecessary details, like if it isn't important then the author will not bother drawing it. I often find my self overwhelmed by lengthy and unimportant description in a novel. They can write like 10 lines long-paragraph just to explain what the character is wearing or to describe where the conflict takes place. I was like, "really why don't you just cut to the damn chase i just want to know what happens next!". 

Or maybe the actual reason is just that i'm plain lazy. And broke. 

Kejamnya Gerbong Wanita Commuter Line

Semenjak hidup menjadi seorang jobseeker, gue jadi sering naik commuter line. Terakhir gue naik kereta dari Bekasi ke Jakarta, Kereta Ekonomi masih beroperasi dan Kereta Ekonomi AC juga baru banget ada (udah lama banget ya berarti?) Makanya begitu tau sekarang udah jadi KRL Commuter Line semua, dan sistemnya udah kece banget gue cukup excited nyobain improvement yang diadakan sama PT KAI ini.

Emang ga tiap hari sih, tapi pengalaman yang cuma beberapa kali naik commuter line itu cukup memberi gue banyak cerita. Gue kalo naik selalu di gerbong wanita. Pertimbangan gue awalnya karena yang pertama jelas untuk menghindarin kejadian-kejadian creepy yang suka terjadi di gerbong umum, dan yang kedua sepenuh apapun gerbong wanita, wanginya masih lebih manusiawi dibandingkan sama gerbong umum (No offense, boys!huehe).

Tapi ternyata oh ternyata, gerbong wanita itu kejam. Kompetisi luar biasa tinggi dan probabilitas Anda untuk adu mulut sama sesama penumpang luar biasa besar. Kondisi di gerbong wanita juga biasanya lebih penuh dibanding gerbong umum. Kalo lagi di jam-jam berangkat atau pulang kantor, lo bisa tuh berdiri di gerbong dengan posisi diri miring tapi ga akan jatoh. Saking penuhnya. Trus karena isinya perempuan semua kali ya, jadi ga ada yang merasa bahwa ada pihak yang harus lebih diutamakan dari pihak lainnya. Maksudnya, kalo di gerbong umum, biasanya kan suka ada mas-mas gentle yang ngasih duduk ke ibu-ibu yang capek berdiri atau ibu-ibu gendong anak. Nah kalo di gerbong wanita: sori-sori aja, lo capek gue juga capek dan kita sama-sama cewek.

Anyway, gue mau share beberapa cerita selama gue menaiki gerbong wanita. Sebagian gue alami sendiri, sebagian lain pengalaman temen-temen gue...

Kisah 1

Suatu hari di gerbong wanita yang sangat luar biasa penuh sesak, ada seorang mba-mba yang mau turun di Stasiun X. Mba-mba ini posisi duduknya adalah di bangku yang agak jauh dari pintu kereta.

*Kereta sampai di Stasiun X*
Mba-mba (M): Eh ini udah di stasiun X ya? Duh saya mau turun nih, misi dong misi *sambil ribet sendiri*
Akan tetapi karena gerbong wanita seperti biasa selalu penuh, jadi si mba-mba ini susah lewat
M: Duh gimana nih saya mau lewat, misi ya!
Ibu-ibu 1(I1): Mba, makanya lain kali kalo mau turun tuh siap-siapnya dari stasiun sebelumnya
M: Yaaa saya kan ga tau, ini baru pertama naik kereta. Biasanya kan saya dianter sama Om
I1: *tampang nyinyir*
M: *masih ribet* Misi dong misi duuuh nanti kalo pintunya ketutup gimana?
Ibu-ibu 2: Ih ribet banget sih mba! udah lah mba ini dorong aja
Ibu-ibu lain: Iya lah udah dorong aja. Dorong, dorong!
Ibu-ibu lainnya lagi: Dorong, dorong!
.................dan dalam sekejap segerbong pun ikutan teriak "Dorong, dorong, dorong!" dengan nada nyorakin. Wanita memang mengerikan. Ralat. Ibu-ibu yang mengerikan.

Kisah 2

Di suatu pagi yang cerah, seperti biasa gerbong wanita udah penuh sesak bahkan sejak masih di Stasiun Bekasi yang notabene adalah stasiun pemberhentian paling pertama. Dari Stasiun Bekasi aja penuhnya udah kacau, kebayang kan gimana di stasiun-stasiun berikutnya.

Pas kereta mau berangkat, petugas di gerbong lokomotif harus berulang kali mengingatkan lewat speaker supaya penumpang jangan ada yang berdiri di depan pintu dan menghimbau penumpang untuk ga maksain naik kalo gerbongnya udah penuh. Soalnya kalo ada orang berdiri di deket pintu, sensor pintu akan merintahin pintu untuk tetep ngebuka, dan kalo ada satu pintu aja yang masih kebuka, kereta ga akan jalan. Pak Satpam yang bertugas di gerbong wanita sampe harus ngedorong paksa ibu-ibu ke dalam gerbong supaya pintu otomatisnya bisa ketutup. Pernah nyobain maksa masukin baju ke dalam ransel yang udah penuh?mesti diteken-teken kan supaya masuk? Nah itu kira-kira yang dilakuin sama Pak Satpam ini. Setelah beberapa kali upaya "pemampatan" dan beberapa kali peringatan via speaker, akhirnya penumpang bisa diatur sedemikian rupa sehingga pintu bisa ketutup dan kereta bisa jalan.

Selanjutnya, kereta berhenti di stasiun kedua, yaitu Stasiun Keranji.
*Pintu gerbong wanita kebuka*
Mba-mba mau masuk (M4): Misi ya bu boleh tolong geser ke dalem ga?
Ibu-ibu di pintu: *berusaha ngegeser* Aduh susah nih mba udah penuh
M4: Eh yang dalem, tolong ya geser dong. Orang kan mau masuk juga
Ibu-ibu di dalem: Udah ga bisa, kalo ga muat ga usah dipaksa dong
Mba-mba lainnya: Iya nanti pintunya malah ga bisa ketutup
M4: Yeee, kita kan sama-sama mau berangkat kerja keleus. Kenapa jadi ngatur-ngatur, emang kereta punya nenek moyang lo?! *sambil maksa masuk*
.............kemudian hening dan kereta pun jalan. Ya, si mba-mba berhasil masuk.

Kisah 3
Di suatu hari di jam-jam sibuk di gerbong wanita Commuter Line Bekasi-Kota, (Ini gue kayaknya udah ga perlu nambahin deskripsi bahwa gerbong itu penuh sesak dll ya, karna emang selalu begitu)
Mba-mba 1 (M1): *tetiba asma*
Mba-mba 2 (M2): Eh kenapa mba? asma ya? tolong dong ini ada yg asma!
Mba-mba 3 (M3): Mba bawa inhaler ga?
M1: *masih sambil asma* *geleng-geleng*
M2: Ini mba, pake inhaler saya aja. Ngerti pakenya kan?
M3: Eh yang duduk tolong dong nyadar diri, ini ada yg lg sakit
*dan yang duduk semuanya pada pura-pura ga denger atau pura-pura tidur.*
M2: Idih, amit-amit. Pura-pura tidur aja semua! Kalo anak orang pingsan gimana
M1: *masih asma*
M3: Pak satpam, tolongin dong ini pak ada yang asma

Satpam yang kondisinya tergencet di pintu sisi sebelah kiri pun ga bisa ngapa-ngapain. Karena di dalam kereta itu literally lo sulit banget buat ganti posisi berdiri, apalagi jalan untuk nyamperin tempat kejadian.

M2: Heh yang duduk, budek ya?!!
*mungkin yang duduk dalam hatinya bilang "iya mba, untuk saat ini saya lg budek. mohon maaf"*
M1: Udah, udah mba gapapa. Saya udah enakan kok. *masih megap-megap*

Akhirnya kejadian tersebut berlalu tanpa ada orang yang mau ngalah ngasih bangku untuk Mba-mba yang sakit tersebut. What's wrong with you people?

Kisah 4
Masih di scene yang sama kayak kisah 3...
Ibu-ibu sebelah gue (I): Itu satpam gimana sih, orang ada yang sakit bukannya nolongin
Mba-mba sebelahnya: Susah kali bu, satpamnya ga bisa gerak
I: Ya kalo gitu ga usah ikutan naiklah, menuh-menuhin gerbong aja. Useless amat sih!
...............................................................................................................................

Kisah 5
Di suatu hari di jam pulang kantor
*Hening* *yang duduk rata-rata tidur*
*tetiba ada botol minum jatoh dari salah satu tas yang ada di tempat penyimpanan tas di atas tempat duduk*
*botolnya menimpa kepala ibu-ibu yang lagi tidur*
Ibu-ibu: Aduh! Botol siapa nih?!!
Mba-mba yang punya botol (M1): *pura-pura ga liat* *ga mau ngaku*
I: Gimana sih nih naro kok di atas, kan jadi jatoh. Emangnya ga sakit apa, bla bla bla (ngedumel)
Mba-mba iseng nanggepin si ibu-ibu (M2): Ya mau gimana lagi bu, namanya juga di kereta, goyang-goyang.
I: Yaiya makanya saya bilang jangan ditaro di atas!! udah tau goyang-goyang..
M2: Ya kan capek bu ditenteng-tenteng, Ibu mah enak dapet duduk
I: Kok jadi sewot sih mba, emang ini punya mba??
M2: Ngga, bukan punya saya
*Bla bla bla. Perdebatan berlanjut sampe pada capek sendiri*
M1: *tetap kalem dan diem-diem ngambil botol minumnya yang jatoh*
Well, I'll do the same if i were her.

Begitulah kira-kira beberapa penggal cerita pengalaman naik commuter line gerbong wanita. Walaupun begitu, sampe detik ini kalo gue harus naik kereta sendirian, gue tetep memilih buat naik gerbong wanita. And if there's something i can learn from my previous experiences: You don't mess with Ibu-ibu. Just don't.

These things end...

"These things end," she said. "They always end. Nobody marries their first love. First love is just that. First. It's implied that something else will follow"

- Attachment by Rainbow Rowell

Gonna Get Over You

...but "why not me?" philosophy begins
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ke laut aja lo, Pris!

Science and God's Existence

Cited from Have a Little Faith by Mitch Albom

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    Can I ask you something?
     "Ask away, young scholar," he crowed.
     How do you know God exists?
     He stopped. A smile crept across his face.
     "An excellent question."
     He pressed his fingers into his chin.
     And the answer? I said.
     "First, make the case against Him"
     Okay, I said, taking his challenge. How about this? We live in a world where your genes can be mapped, where your cells can be copied, where your face can be altered. Heck, with surgery, you can go from being a man to being a woman. We have science to tell us of the earth's creation; rocket probes explore the universe. The sun is no longer a mystery. And the moon - which people used to worship? We brought some of it home in a pouch, right?
     "Go on," he said.
     So why, in such a place, where the once-great mysteries have been solved, does anyone still believe in God or Jesus or Allah or Supreme Being of any kind? Haven't we outgrown it? Isn't it like Pinocchio, the puppet? When he found he could move without his strings, did he still look the same way at Gepetto?
     The Reb tapped his fingers together.
     "That's some speech."
     You said make a case.
     "Ah."
     He leaned in. "Now. My turn. Look, if you say that science will eventually prove there is no God, on that I must differ. No matter how small they take it back, to a tapdole, to an atom, there is always something they can't explain, something that created it all at the end of the search
     And no matter how far they try to go the other way - to extend life, play around with the genes, live to one hundred and fifty - at some point, life is over. And then what happens? When life comes to an end?"
     I shrugged.
     "You see?"
     He leaned back. He smiled.
     "When you come to the end, that's where God begins."

I Write

I write as I am trying to put this explosive feeling into words. Trying to bear the untold from inside my chest. I write because I’m in the urge to tell but I don’t think anyone would care enough to listen. I write because I have this strong desire to have a conversation with you but I don’t want to seem cheap by being the first to greet. I write because I miss you. I write to calm my heart down.

Most of all, I write as if there would be a chance for you to read this......

PS: It's my hormone who speaks.

The Perks of Being A Still-Unemployed Newly Grads

Yeah, i'm currently unemployed, temporarily of course and hopefully. (Pardon me for venting a little bit) When i was still in college i'd never imagined that job seeking would be this hard, well i heard some stories about the struggles and everything yet i wasn't aware that all would happen to me. I mean i'm pretty confident with my capability, also my background (major & university) allegedly will do me a favor. I always hoped that i could be hired by a company before i was even graduated or at least soon after graduation. Nonetheless, if i could quote a line from TFIOS, the world is not a wish granting factory. 

I've been through (by through, i mean not really go over it, not until, you know, i finally am hired by a company) those hard times when reunion feels suck instead of nostalgically pleasant because everyone else are busy talking about how they love their employer or how frustrating their jobs while you don't have one (yet), or when you face those typical question of have you graduated and where do you work now so often-you-want-to-make-a-tag-written-"yes i have and i'm a freeloader now at my parents' house", also when you realize that your parents are still trying to be supportive while deep in their heart they've become hopelessly sceptic whether they kid could get a job or not, or when you fail an interview and you keep giving your self the same cliche solace all over again that this doesn't mean you're dumb that may be it's merely because the job doesn't mean for you that Allah still has a bigger plan (though of course He certainly does).

I fully fathom all the sadness and the pain and all. And if there's a person who can sing Coldplay's Fix You, especially at the line of "When you try your best but you don't succeeeed~" whole-heartedly, soulfully, and thoughtfully, that would be me. Me, and the other job seekers out there. May Allah soon put a happy ending to our endless attempt. Amin.

Anyway, going back to what i try to write this time, actually this is kinda "suggestion" for my self to keep positive. To just get over the hurtful fact that i fail recruitment tests so many times, and to just keep fighting. So to be fair, after i spitted out all the negative sides, i'm gonna share the positive side of being an unemployed. In terms of abundant spare time i have, being an unemployed is not that bad because it means i've got time to:

1. Learn new recipes

Yes, this is actually a really good time to try as many recipes as possible. All that fancy dishes i looked at Master Chef or tempting cakes at the cafe that i couldn't afford. Cooking is really fun, let alone the eating itself. If you succeed then you're one step closer to become an ideal wife but if you fail you still could eat the dish if you want to.

2. Pay more attention to self appearance

When i was still in college, i had this body scrubs and facial mask that i bought at the supermarket but guess what? I never touched them since the first time they sat on my bathroom drawer until they were out of date! Why? because ain't nobody in college got time for that (well maybe somebody did, but i didn't). So this time, while i still get a plenty quality time for my self, i'm gonna go body-scrubbing every single time i shower and apply the mask every freaking time i feel i wanna do it. HAHAHA. Well, nah, not literally. But you get my point right?

3. Have a lot family-time

This is the most important thing to do when you have free time, moreover if you go outside your hometown for college. So, the time between your graduation and your first day of work is the most ideal time to spend with your family. I read an article somewhere whom mentions that the most common thing people often regret is that they don't spend enough time with their loved ones that when they finally realize it, everything is already too late. Thus, spend as many time as possible with them while you can. While they can.

4. Read more books
And by books i mean the real ones, not the girly comics i used to read. Well, it's not that i entirely don't read comic anymore, it's just i think at my age i need to read something more informative rather than just entertaining. So in this spare time, i start to expand my reading. Currently i commence to read financial planning books.

5. Get involved in some social activities
Though i haven't done this one yet, but i'm planning to do so. Still looking for the right events now. Actually, my friends asked me to join a charity project last week, too bad i couldn't join her because of several reasons.

6. Study IELTS
I want to pursue my master degree in UK 3 years from now and i'm definitely gonna need a high IELTS score for that. Now that i have got so many times, i won't trifle it away by just having fun. I could dedicate my entire afternoon to study over it.

7. Sleep and awake at as i want to
Guess this is the best privilege of being an unemployed, right? ;)

Well, though i am enjoying my abundant spare time right now i really hope that this circumstances will not last any longer.

Places I Wish I Could Travel To Before I Die

I believe every places in the earth are beautiful in their own way. Here is the list of places i'm dying to visit while i live. Some are a-must-visit because of personal reason, some are just plain worth to come to.

1. Mecca, Arab Saudi

Image taken here

Like any other moslem, i've always wanted to go hajj/umroh and visit the place which has always been my qibla since like forever. However before i step my feet to this holy place, i wish i could send my parents to go there first. Insya Allah :")

2. Venice, Italy

Image taken here

I've always been a fond of this floating city ever since the first time i watched Chasing Liberty. My admiration grows bigger when i finished reading Dan Brown's Inferno. Venice is not just aesthetic but also historic. Surrounded by water, this city look so classic, romantic, and stunning for me - though some said that this city will be very awful when acqua alta (high water) especially during the cold months. I always imagine my self going around the Grand Canal right before sunset by a Vaporetto, exploring Italian food at the i Tre Mecanti, watching opera at the Teatro La Venice, paying some visit to numerous historical place like Palazzo Ducale or Saint Mark's Basilica, and spending a day in the beautiful island of Burano. I dont know, this place just has too much to offer that i must choose wisely which to visit if someday i really could put my feet on this city of lagoons.

3. Santorini, Greece

image taken here

Santorini is an island belongs to the group of Cyclades in Greece. It's well known for its traditional architecture - buildings with blue dome and pastel colors perching on the cliffs of the caldera. Many tourists come here to enjoy its dramatic views, stunning sunsets from Oia, or its unique eggplant - aubergine.

When i was in college, i joined a cultural organization called Keluarga Paduan Angklung. like its name, our activity includes performing several songs with the traditional music instrument, angklung. One of the song that we often played was Santorini. I never really cared where is Santorini or what kind of place is that (at first i didn't even know that it's a name of a location) until i learned to play my part in that song. If the song is truly beautiful then the place which it's named after of must be flawless. i began to search about this island afterwards, and i always wanted to go to Santorini since then.

4. Pulau Weh, Indonesia

Image taken here

Located in the western part of Indonesia, Pulau Weh is a small island belongs to Nangroe Aceh Darussalam Province, who possesses one of Indonesia's marine beauty. If you are longing for an amazing underwater scenery or a jaw-hanging view of sunrise, Pulau Weh won't disappoint you. This island is where Indonesia's 0 Km point located. Travelling to Weh has actually been a plan for me and a few of my friends since we were still in college, but we still don't have the opportunity (or money) just yet. I guess this would be the first place on the list that i visit. Wait for me, Pulau Weh!

5. Tromsø, Norway

Image taken here

One of my obsession in life is to see aurora borealis at the sky of Norway. Seeing the captured northern light in google is already breathtaking, i don't know how this self would react if i see it directly with my very own eyes. Aside from being the perfect place to view one of the magnificent natural phenomenon, Tromso also has many more to offer. Visiting Arctic Cathedral - the most photographed building in the city, Polar Museum, and kayaking around the city will as well be on my itinerary list.

6. London, UK

Image taken here

I want to pursue my master degree in UK 3 years from now, i hope everything goes the way i plan. I haven't decided which school i want to go to -because it depends on what major i would take - which depends on in what kind of field i have a career, and the program that the university provides- but it just has to be UK. on wherever city my school will be, i'm definitely gonna make time to travel and explore London. No need to further elaborate my reason of wanting to visit this city for everyone already knows London is just fascinating. I mean, it's quite a common dream for people to ever step their feet on this land, right?

So...

yeah, why don't I?
Image taken here

7. Keukenhof Park, Netherlands

Image taken here

This time, i'd be very specific. i want to visit Keukenhof Park, tourists most visited place in Lisse, Netherland - because i'm not really interested at other spot in the city. Like any other visitors, i want to come there to admire the blooming bulb flowers field. I never really become a fan of flowers as i'm the type of girl who prefers to receive chocolate or cake over flowers, yet this full of bulb flowers park is an exception. I always imagine my self having picnic there, i mean it's probably one of the best picnic spot on earth, and i always wanted to take a picture of my self surrounded by lines of tulips. As cheesy as it sounds, those what motivates me to fly to that place. Perhaps i'll visit there during my master degree's spring break, hahaha

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They say if you have a dream, don't be shy to share it, for the world will remind you if someday you forget about it

PS: The list is most likely to be extended in the future, cheers!

My Favorite Breakfast Recipe

Some researches have proven that breakfast is the most important meal of the day and i'm gonna share what kind of meal that has been serving as that important part of my daily life.

1. Mashed Potato (untuk 2 porsi)

Sebenernya ini side dish sih, yet i just love mashed potato and eating it as a main dish karena bikinnya gampang dan ngenyangin.

Bahan:

- 2 buah kentang

- Keju kraft

- Susu vanilla 150mL (tanpa gula)

- Garam

- Merica bubuk

- 1/2 Sdm Margarin

- 1 Sdm Tepung terigu

Cara Membuat:

1. Rebus kentang sampe empuk. Setelah itu angkat, kupas kulitnya, dan tumbuk hingga halus.

2. Panaskan margarin di atas wajan dengan api sedang sampe mencair.

3. Masukkan terigu, aduk-aduk sambil masukkan susu.

4. Parut keju di atas adonan susu. Takarannya sesuai selera masing-masing. Aduk sampe keju larut.

(I looove cheese so i grated so much cheese for mine)

5. Masukkan kentang yang udah ditumbuk, aduk

6. Do the seasoning! Takarannya sesuai selera, kalo kejunya udah banyak you wont need much salt. Punya gue garam dan mericanya masing-masing 1 sendok teh aja.

2. Mac&Cheese (untuk 5 porsi)

An ultimate breakfast for cheese lovers. Nyumm.

Bahan:

- 300 gram Macaroni

- 300 gram Keju parut

- 2 sdm Tepung terigu

- 1/2 buah Bawang bombay

- 600 mL Susu vanilla (tanpa gula)
- Garam
- Lada
Cara Membuat:
1. Rebus macaroni sampe empuk. Setelah empuk, angkat, tiriskan.
(tips on this: tambahin minyak dan garam ke dalam air sebelum macaroninya dimasukin. minyak akan membuat macaroni ga menempel ke permukaan panci dan garam akan memberi sedikit rasa ke macaroninya)
2. Tumis bawang bombay dengan mentega sampai harum, masukkan tepung terigu, aduk-aduk
3. Masukkan susu, lalu masukkan keju parut. aduk-aduk sampe keju mulai meleleh dan membuat saosnya kental
4. Masukkan macaroni, aduk pelan-pelan sampe rata.
5. Do the seasoning with salt and pepper!
Tips: Setelah matang, untuk kamu yg pengen macaroninya lebih cheesy lagi, kamu bisa letakkan macaroninya ke atas wadah tahan panas, lalu parut keju mozarella atau cheddar quick melt di atasnya. Terus panggang sebentar di dalam oven/microwave sampe kejunya meleleh. It would melt like heaven in your mouth ❤

3. Banana Bread Pudding (untuk 5 porsi)
Kalo yang ini sebenernya sarapan favorit adik-adikku, mereka suka minta dibikinin ini kalo gue lagi di rumah. I also love this bread pudding, but sweet dish has never been my type of breakfast. Here's the recipe anyway
Bahan:
- 4 lembar Roti tawar
- 300 mL Susu vanilla
- 2 butir Telur
- 250 gram Keju parut
- 250 gram Meises
- 2 buah Pisang, dipotong kecil-kecil
- 1/2 sdt Kayu manis
- Gula
- Margarin
Cara Membuat
1. Siapkan wadah alumunium berdiameter kurang lebih 5cm sebanyak 5 buah, olesi permukaannya dengan margarin
2. Campur susu dan telur, kocok hingga rata. Tambahkan 3 sendok gula, aduk rata. (Kalo susunya pakai yang tanpa gula, sebelum dicampur telur, susunya dikasih gula terlebih dahulu sampai kamu rasa sudah manis)
3. Potong setiap lembar roti menjadi 8 bagian. Selanjutnya, tata roti tersebut di atas wadah alumunium. Tambahkan taburan keju dan meises serta potongan pisang di antara setiap lapisan roti. Tumpuk roti hingga memenuhi wadah
4. Panaskan oven dengan suhu 180 derajat selama 10 menit
5. Tuangkan adonan susu-telur ke setiap wadah hingga memenuhi wadah tersebut
6. Masukkan oven, panggang dengan suhu 180 derajat selama 25 menit.

Tentang Ikhlas

"Kenapa ya susah banget buat ikhlas?"
"Ya iya lah, soalnya hadiahnya surga. Kalo gampang hadiahnya kipas angin"

....well said.

Best Day of My Life, So Far.

Well, actually it happened on April 12th, but I could still feel the excitement just as clear now. I mean IT'S MY VERY OWN GRADUATION! It finally came, it's finally happened.

Akhirnya ngerasain juga jadi yang punya hajat di syukwis HIMATEK, setelah sekian kali jadi panitia dan sekian kali ngarak yang punya hajat. Akhirnya ngerasain pake toga & dandan cakep pake kebaya. Akhirnya ngerasain bangganya pas nama disebut di Sabuga. Akhirnya ngerasain terharunya pas naik ke panggung dan salaman sama Pak Rektor. Akhirnya ngerasain main angklung di sidang terbuka diri sendiri. Akhirnya!

Dan...akhirnya ngerasain dapet bermacem-macem hadiah dari orang-orang terdekat.

It surely was the best day i ever woke up to in my life. I mean look at the gifts! I never expected to receive that much, I even doubted my closest friends would come to my graduation day (as most of them work in different city or even different island). But they did come and to thank them even thousand times would never be enough. Couldn't be more grateful.

a hundred gifts, a thousand friends, a billion wishes, and infinite happiness ♥

Happy Birthday, Denissa!

To the world, today's might just an international labor day, yet to me today's a special day of a friend who means the whole world. Happy birthday, Dang! 

Finally S.T.

Alhamdulillah, all praise to Allah the Almighty who lets this finally happen in my life, who gives me strength to get through the crazy four and a half years of college, who gives me chance to finally finish all of this. Today i'm officially a bachelor of science!!!

Well, through this post i'd like to deliver my very very special gratitude to those who both technically and emotionally help me to pass what so called fundamental engineering examination:

1. My beloved family; mom, dad, and the four cute siblings, thank you all for always sending me abundant prayers, for keeping me motivated during hard days. I love you to the moon and back <3 nbsp="" p="">
2. My college best friends, Denissa and Rea, and my senior, Kak Suri, who had lent me their course notes and exercise books which i could never pass the exam without. You don't know how much i owe you guys :")

3. Putri, Dhika, Yuda, Putra, Kak Reda, for being a fine partner for studying. Our hard work finally pays off!!

5. My beloved girls, Bibil, Monica, Elsa, Tyas, Marsha who never stop to support me through the darkest times and always make me laugh just right when i need it. You rock, girls! Wuff youuu :3

6. Uti, my super kind and sweet junior, who on the d-day of exam intentionally came to my dorm to give me support, drove me to campus, and made me a parcel of snacks and chocolate.

7. All of my friends who send me prayer so that i could pass the exam. I don't know which prayer that Allah has granted, it could be theirs, it could be yours. So thank you, really!!

Music During Exercise Could Damage Your Ear

For once, let me try to write something informative and useful for the readers hahaha. Yes i'm going to share a little of my knowledge about health.

Most of us love to listen to music during workout and we usually use earphone. Last year, i read an article that said that it turns out could damage your hearing (yes, i read the article last year and i share it just right now, i'm sorry). How could this possible? Here's the scientific explanation; When we do exercise, our body tend to release adrenaline hormone. Adrenaline creates fight-flight body response in the body, directing blood towards limb. Therefore, the blood flow to the organs of the body, as well as the ears, is limited. 

Next, what happen if our ears are exposed to loud music during this condition? Yup, it will cause hearing loss. Not that i say it will happen in instance, but if you do this often times you may find your self experiencing some signs that indicate hearing loss such as ringing in ears, difficulty in hearing low sound, difficulty in understanding conversation in noisy place, etc. 

So, my suggestion would be; better avoid hearing too much loud music during exercise, if you find music makes your self more energetic and still want to listen to it, you can use speaker instead of headphone/earphone (this way, your ears will not directly be exposed to loud music) and make sure you limit the volume to a level where you can still feel the beat without damaging your ear. Honestly, this suggestion should goes to my self as well, hahaha.

*source: teluguone.com

A Little Reminder

When you feel that your life is hard or God is being unfair to you, think about the homeless who have to sleep on the road every night, or those who suffer physical disability but still have to work hard to survive life, or the victims of natural disaster who lost their home and family, or children who never be able to experience school, or those who have to struggle just so their kids could eat. 

So many reasons for being grateful of what you have now, so why won’t you?

Sara Bareilles - I Choose You

Singing this song on a wedding would be very sweet. I'd be very touched and happy if my future husband sings it for me on our big day. Yet this song is better sung by woman voice (in my opinion). So.....let's say i'm the one who is gonna sing this in front of everyone on my wedding day (which is still someday in the very very very future), yes? :")
..or inviting Sara Bareilles to sing on my wedding day would be epic as well

biar semangat dikit

Set me free, leave me be..

...I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity.

cause the same pattern inevitably repeats in a period of time and i'm tired of being the same stupid girl.

2013's Up and Down

I know it’s kinda late to write my 2013 review, but I feel like I still have to write this down cause 2013 turns out to be the most campur aduk year amongst the other 19 years that I’ve been living.

Well, mari mulai dengan awal tahun. Just like every other new year eves, I set up my yearly goals. Kalo resolusi besar tahun 2011 itu nabung which is unfortunately kurang berhasil, tahun 2012 resolusi gue adalah selalu sikat gigi tiap sebelum tidur (ya, benar sekali saudara-saudara, anak ini emang jorok. sebelumnya suka males sikat gigi sebelum tidur) which Alhamdulillah works, dan untuk 2013 ini kebetulan big goalnya adalah graduated from ITB. Sebenernya ada beberapa resolusi pendukung lain, kayak penelitian-RP-kompre (3 syarat kelulusan di prodi gue) dapet A, trus abis lulus langsung dapet kerja, and I also set some mission to be accomplished before graduated. But still the main issue here is to be graduated first, dan sayangnya resolusi besar ini tidak tercapai – nanti akan gue bahas satu-satu di bawah.

More or less, here are some highlights of my 2013

1. Goodbye teenager, welcome 20!

Yap, di tahun 2013 ini gue resmi secara angka bukan lagi seorang teenager. Kalo kelakuan sih, ya…. Udah jauh sebelum 2013 dewasanya hakakak. Sebenernya ga ada yang bener-bener istimewa sih dari berumur kepala dua ini. Sama-sama aja, cuma lebih merasa tua aja kalo lagi ditanya umur sama orang hehe. Yet for some people, being 20 changes several important things in life, for example like the magazine you read (eh, important ga sih ini?). Mungkin tadinya suka baca Go Girl sekarang bacanya udah Cosmopolitan. But since I’m not a fan of stuffs like that dan bacaan gue dari lahir sampe sekarang ga berubah; komik, so I feel no significant difference :p

2. Hello new people!

Setelah gue sadari, 2013 ini tahun di mana gue bertemu dengan banyaaaak orang baru dibanding dengan tahun-tahun sebelumnya. Though most of them are still from ITB, tapi ga sedikit juga yang bukan anak ITB bahkan bukan mahasiswa. Some of them are just meant to be a fine colleague, some of them are worth to spend time with, and some even turn out to be in my “Alhamdulillah pernah kenal dia” list. Yet, over all sebenernya tetap gue bersyukur sih bisa dapet kesempatan ketemu dan kenal sama semua orang-orang tersebut hehe. Meeting new people, making new friends somehow can fill a positive energy within my self. I happen to learn new things, get different and new point of view towards something, and also realize that there’re so many great people out there I haven’t met.

3. Win a college competition

This is included in my “things to do before graduate” lists. I’m so glad that after 4 years I’ve been in this campus whose students are so actively involved and also succeed in both global and local competitions, I finally can win one. Akhirnya juga kolom “Achievement” di CV-ku ada isinya :”). Walaupun sebenernya lomba yang gue ikutin ini ga ada hubungannya sama sekali sama keprofesian jurusan gue, but who cares?! I’m the champion baby!!wohooo~

The trophy for winning Neon Award Competition held by UPH

4. Finish two out of three pre-requisites to be a bachelor

Kalo di jurusan lain kan biasanya TA-nya penelitian aja tuh. Jadi habis sidang penelitian, langsung dapet gelar sarjana. Nah kalo di jurusan gue beda nih, karena ada tiga TA. Jadi yang menjadi puncak dan menentukan kelulusan adalah ujian komprehensif, syarat untuk bisa ujian kompre ini adalah sudah sidang penelitian dan sidang rancang pabrik(RP). Well I supposed to finish the three of them by 2013 since my goal is to be graduated that year. Yet the destiny is not mine to control. So I happened to just finish 2 of them, which are sidang penelitian dan sidang RP. Sebenernya sidang RP gue ini gue selesaikan tepat waktu, jadi yang bermasalah adalah sidang penelitian. Kalo dijabarin di sini ceritanya bisa panjang kali lebar kali tinggi banget so I plan to make a separate post abt this. Still, Alhamdulillah the remaining task to do is only one. Kompre, I’m gonna beat you up this March! Watch your self~

Kelompok Rancang Pabrik PT Buncit Sejahtera usai sidang RP

5. Got a chance to do internship at Chevron

I think this one is my favorite part of 2013, because I really got many lessons, both life lessons and technical lessons, from this occasion! Well I’m planning to make a different post about this one too hehe. But to sum up, melalui internship ini gue dapet kesempatan untuk mengenal lebih dalam tentang oil and gas industry which apparently is a kind of industry that is also strongly related to my major, chemical engineering.

I got so many priceless experience seperti dikasih kesempatan untuk belajar banyak tentang drilling engineering which i didn’t know at all at the frist time I got there, dikasih kesempatan untuk ke rig, dibayarin training seharga 4jt, dapet kesempatan jg untuk ketemu dan belajar dari business partnernya Chevron. Dan yang ga kalah pricelessnya sih adalah dapet banyak pelajaran hidup, like how to survive and quickly adapt in a totally new environment, how to deal with older colleague, how to beat the fear inside yourself and widen your comfort zone, yang terakhir yang cukup penting; how to keep okay while you can’t go home to meet and join your family on Lebaran Day hahaha (mungkin beberapa orang udah ada yg kebiasa ya, tapi bagi gue ini adalah pengalaman pertama). Really, I’m truly grateful to have this chance.

Anak norak foto-foto di Rig MTR-2, Attaka Field, Kalimantan Timur

NB: terimakasih banyak kepada pihak-pihak yang membantu gue buat lolos seleksi UPP internship ini, you don’t know how much I owe you :)

6. I lost both my laptop and my new handphone

Kalo ga ceroboh namanya bukan Priska. Hahaha. Di 2013 gue kehilangan dua benda yang paling penting dalam kelangsungan hidup di era millennium ini. Yang pertama laptop. Yang laptop ini hilangnya gegara gue tinggal di dalem mobil temen pas gue lagi makan sih, jadi mobil temen gue dibobol sama maling gitu. Biasanya gue ga pernah loh ninggalin laptop di dalem mobil, karena kejadian kaca mobil dipecahin pas parker di pinggir jalan ini udah sering terjadi di Bandung. But that night, gatau deh apa yang membuat gue berpikir untuk ga nurunin laptop. Nah sadly, dari dua laptop yang ada di dalem mobil, Cuma laptop gue doang yang dicolong (bukan, bukan gue berharap laptop temen gue ini diambil juga) dan saat itu gue lagi ribet-ribetnya ngerjain RP which is butuh laptop. Untungnya waktu itu semua file yang berkenaan dengan TA, gue simpen backupnya di email dan di dropbox so at least the data is safe. However, I lost another precious data kayak foto-foto jaman SMP-SMA yang udah ga ada back up nya lagi. Tapi yasudah lah...huhu

Setelah kejadian laptop hilang ini, temen gue yang kasian-banget-kaca-mobilnya-dipecahin sweet banget tiba-tiba nganterin cokelat ke kosan untuk menghibur gue xixixi. In case orangnya baca: hai, apa kabar? makasih banyak yaaa! :””)

Yang kedua kehilangan handphone yang dibeli pake jerih payah sendiri dan baru dipake 3 minggu. Syediiiih. Ini salah satu kejadian kehilangan yang gue susah banget ikhlasinnya hahaha. Kalo yang ini gegara kecopetan sih waktu lagi belajar-belajar cantik di Calais. Beware ppl, jangan sembarangan naro hp ya, kalo bisa di tempat umum ngeluarin hp seperlunya aja. Don’t make a chance for them to do the smuggling!

Anyway, satu hal yang gue yakini setiap kehilangan sesuatu; Allah will give you something better in return of something that He took from you.

7. Gagal wisuda Oktober

Menurut gue, tahun 2013 itu tahunnya belajar ikhlas banget sih. Selain karena peristiwa yg gue alamin di no.6, banyak hal-hal lain yang terjadi yang intinya ngajarin gue buat ikhlas. Salah satu contohnya adalah gagal wisuda Oktober. Jadi, seperti yg udah gue certain di atas, bahwasanya ada 3 syarat kelulusan di jurusan gue dengan penentu kelulusannya adalah ujian kompre. Seperti yang udah gue bilang jg bahwa untuk bisa ujian kompre harus udah sidang penelitian dan sidang RP.

Kondisinya adalah saat itu penelitian gue ini topiknya agak sepele tapi alatnya super ribet. Karena keribetan ini akhirnya alat gue baru bisa jadi itu kira-kira bulan Mei akhir, which bikin gue baru bisa nge-run (ngambil data) di bulan Juni. Lalu tiba-tiba di bulan Juni gue dapet panggilan untuk internship di Chevron yang membuat akhirnya penelitian gue harus pisah kelompok dg partner gue dan harus gue tunda sampe selesai internship, which is August 25^th. Though I’ve done my very best and I already struggle to finish my research project right on time before the deadline, I guess Allah doesn’t let me to graduate that October and gives another scenario instead. Jadi pada akhirnya penelitian gue ga bisa gue selesaikan tepat waktu dan gue ga bisa ikut ujian komprehensif utk periode Oktober yang berujung pad ague ga bisa diwisuda di bulan Oktober. And that makes me sad as hell. Karena yang pertama; gagal oktober means you have to wait til April and it’s still like 6 months away, what am I gonna do till then?. Lalu yg kedua; diwisuda April means lo harus bayar uang kosan lagi sampe 6 bulan ke depan dan mesti bayar uang semesteran lagi, meeen di saat temen2 seangkatan lo udah ngasih gaji pertamanya ke orangtua lo malah masih minta duit buat bayar kosan dan kuliah? Yang ketiga; telat lulus à telat dapet kerja karena banyak perusahaan yg mensyaratkan lo harus udh lulus klo mau daftar. Yang keempat; di saat orang-orang udh move on to next chapter of life, lo msh harus stuck dg campus life and it’s really sad to watch them go, leaving you, friendless, in Bandung. Hiks.

Tetapi, dengan adanya kejadian ini, gue jd sadar bahwa orang-orang di sekeliling gue ternyata peduli banget sama gue. Pada saat gue down, mereka semua selalu ada dan siap buat ngebantu. I really feel loved and blessed. And it turns out bahwa menunda kelulusan ga seburuk itu kok. I happen to join my lecturer’s team for doing a project about textile and I can make my own money from this. I also join another project which is a Bandung-scale project and make the most experience out of it. Status mahasiswa ini jug ague pergunakan sebaik mungkin terutama untuk ikut ulang lomba-lomba yang tahun lalu udah gue ikutin tapi gagal. Karena ga ada kuliah, waktunya lebih luang, jadi bisa ngerjain lomba-lomba tsb dg lebih maksimal. Meskipun hasilnya belum keluar, I’m glad at least I know that I have done my very best. Maybe those are what they called ‘blessing in disguise’. Allah knows while you don’t, right? J

8. Gerakan Sejuta Biopori

Ini adalah salah satu proyek yang gue ikutin selama mengisi 6 bulan gue di Bandung. This actually is Pemkot Bandung’s project yang pelaksanaannya dilakukan oleh konsorsium. Sesuai namanya, proyek ini bergerak di bidang lingkungan dengan big goal membuat sejuta lubang biopori di Kota Bandung. Konsep besarnya, masyarakat diajak untuk berpartisipasi aktif membuat lubang biopori dengan cara mengikuti lomba pangbanyak-banyak bikin lubang per RT dan tentu saja ada hadiah menarik bagi para pemenangnya. My role in this project is to be secretary of the committee.

This is my very first time to take part in a large scale project, plus it’s government project. Jelas, gue belajar banyaaaak banget dari sini. I learn how bureaucracy really works in Indonesia, particularly in Bandung, and man it’s damn ribet! Hahaha. Gue jg banyak belajar pelajaran hidup yang ga kalah penting lainnya, kayak how to handle things underpressure, how to deal with angry people, and so on.  Teruss melalui proyek ini gue jd ketemu banyak temen baru yang seru dan menyenangkan.

Tim relawan ceria Gerakan Sejuta Biopori

Joining this project also really gives me another perspective towards profession. Ternyata ada orang yang emang kerjanya adalah sebagai aktivis lingkungan, ngerjain proyek-proyek yang berhubungan sama lingkungan. They dedicate their lives to fix the environment, make small money out of it – well, maybe sometimes big. Dulu dibayangan gue aktivis-aktivis lingkungan itu punya kerjaan utama, dan bebenah lingkungan cuma sampingan. Tapi ternyata sebagain besar yg gue temui ga seperti itu. I’m amazed of how they can follow their passion and not driven by money. They do what they love and by doing it they also make a significant contribution to the earth, to the environment, to other people. I really wish someday I could be like them.

9. Have a very first crush on ITB guy

Well tho this is quite personal but it’s one of my 2013 highlight, so I’m still gonna write about this yet it won’t be specific. Yes, since 2009 I’ve been studying in ITB, I got my very first crush on ITB guy in my fourth year of college. Kelamaan yah hehe. Bukan anak ITB ga ada yang keren baik dan soleh, bukan. Bukan gue keasikan belajar juga. Tapi selama itu ga ada yg bisa menarik hati aja (cieee).  No one knows about this, including anyone who is close to me in college. I decide it to be just secret between me and myself. Turns out this happens to be just another crush, I mean like I’m happy to be around him, hang out together, have a chit-chat over night, but yeah it won’t go further than that. Until now we remain just friends, and I no longer have a crush on him hehe :p. Yet still I’m happy to ever have this feeling existed during my college life.

Well, those are pretty much the bitter sweet of my 2013. I cant wait to have the better one this year. 2014, please be nice! :D

Hasil Merenung Hari Ini

I think as a girl, it's better for me not to be emotionally attached to any boys who is blood-non related -- well unless til i'm ready to have a serious relationship, marriage. Cause when you are emotionally attached to someone, or may be it will fit better if i say when i am emotionally attached to someone, like it or not i will start to expect something from him, and the more you expect something from the other the more likely you'll be disappointed. Ada yang bilang, low expectation is the key to happiness. Well, sebenernya sih yang bikin ngga bahagia nya itu bukan karena udah berekspektasi tinggi-tinggi, tapi karena ekspektasi tingginya ga tercapai dan biasanya ekspektasi yang tinggi ini ditujukan kepada orang yang sadly ternyata ga capable buat kita ekspektasiin tinggi-tinggi. So, gapapa sih ekspektasi tinggi but choose wisely whom to be expected and I, personally, prefer to choose my self rather than anyone else. Because in the end, the only person who is responsible for your happiness is your own self. I don't want to waste my time waiting for someone to bring happiness into my life, well do you?

Maaf kalo agak ga nyambung ya, tapi kira-kira isi otak saya ya begini, heeee

Love Is An Open Door

Last week, I and my friend went to see a Disney movie, Frozen. The story was as fabolous as other Disney animation movie, but one thing i love about this movie is that it reminded me so much of my siblings haha, plus it has great soundtracks.
There's this one song that i love the most amongst the others, the title is Love Is An Open Door. Like i always do to my other favorite songs, i keep playing this song like a hundred times within a day hehehe. Anyway, here, in case you havent watched the movie, i want you to listen to this song ;p

"Love is an open door" video